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I Have Not Chosen to Be Celibate
The following exchange happened in a professional meeting with more than a dozen people in attendance. Steve: (referring to something...

Benjamin Schilaty
Feb 8, 20184 min read


From SSA to Gay
What defines me? What makes me Ben? What parts of me shouldn’t be calculated when I consider my identity? What does it mean to be a child...

Benjamin Schilaty
Nov 20, 20174 min read


The Stain and the Dance
Recently I was chatting with a dear friend and she shared a dream with me that she had had some time ago. I was struck by the beautiful...

Benjamin Schilaty
Nov 16, 20173 min read


Choosing to Be Straight
I was raised to be straight. My family, my church, and society all expected me to be straight and pointed me in that direction. Being...

Benjamin Schilaty
Oct 23, 20176 min read


Literally Standing as an Ally
That evening the wife texted me a bit to ask some more questions. After talking about gay stuff for a while she texted: “Also, random...

Benjamin Schilaty
Oct 11, 20174 min read


The Best Book that Wasn’t Written for Me
Over the past year and half I’ve gotten to know Tom Christofferson pretty well. What a pleasure it has been! He is kind, wise, spiritual,...

Benjamin Schilaty
Oct 9, 20173 min read


One Size Doesn't Fit All
Since I came out on my blog more than two years ago I’ve been sent Josh Weed’s blog post dozens of times. In the post he and his wife...

Benjamin Schilaty
Sep 5, 20175 min read
I Will Not Go Back in the Closet
I moved back to Provo last week and so much has changed in the six years since I last lived here. I’m 33 now, I look more like a...

Benjamin Schilaty
Aug 29, 20175 min read
A Letter to Gay Mormons
This is my second guest post. It was written by a friend of mine who wanted to share his thoughts while also remaining anonymous. He and...

Benjamin Schilaty
Jul 6, 20174 min read


The Conversation I Wish We Were Having
I spent the last week in Cincinnati grading Spanish AP tests. My week was spent hanging out with friends, exploring the city, endlessly...

Benjamin Schilaty
Jun 20, 20177 min read


Coming Out to Church Leaders
When I first came out to Mitch and Craig in August of 2007 they recommended that I talk to my bishop about my feelings of same-sex...

Benjamin Schilaty
Mar 30, 20174 min read


The Time I Kissed a Girl
When I talk to straight Mormons about my experiences as a gay Mormon they often try to find experiences in their lives that parallel...

Benjamin Schilaty
Mar 2, 20176 min read


Remembering Tami
This is a post that I mostly wrote for myself. I just had to say something about my buddy. My friend Tami Boyens passed away yesterday. I...

Benjamin Schilaty
Jan 7, 20173 min read



Benjamin Schilaty
Dec 21, 20160 min read


Perfectly Single
Four years ago my life was less than ideal. Actually, it kind of stunk. I was just rereading my journal from 2012 and 2013 and boy did I...

Benjamin Schilaty
Dec 6, 20169 min read


Creating a Space for Gay Mormons in Tucson
In September 2015 I started the Tucson LDS Same-Gender Attraction group. No one uses the group’s official name and we all just call it...

Benjamin Schilaty
Nov 21, 201610 min read


Unconventional Evangelizing
Last month three friends and I stayed at an Airbnb in Anaheim while spending two days at Disneyland. Our hostess Leena was super nice....

Benjamin Schilaty
Nov 9, 20162 min read
Line upon Line
The new mormonandgay.lds.org website went live two days ago and I spent a lot of time reading every single word and watching each video....

Benjamin Schilaty
Oct 27, 20165 min read


"The Eyes of My Understanding Were Opened": A Bishop's Journey
Carl found my blog back in May and we exchanged a few emails. He told me that if I was ever in Utah he and his wife would love to have me...

Benjamin Schilaty
Aug 31, 201612 min read
Telling My Gay Mormon Story
When church was over a young woman came over to me and thanked me for my testimony. She told me that she has a friend who’s a lesbian who...

Benjamin Schilaty
Aug 8, 20165 min read
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