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Benjamin Schilaty
Feb 8, 20184 min read
I Have Not Chosen to Be Celibate
The following exchange happened in a professional meeting with more than a dozen people in attendance. Steve: (referring to something...
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Benjamin Schilaty
Nov 20, 20174 min read
From SSA to Gay
What defines me? What makes me Ben? What parts of me shouldn’t be calculated when I consider my identity? What does it mean to be a child...
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Benjamin Schilaty
Nov 16, 20173 min read
The Stain and the Dance
Recently I was chatting with a dear friend and she shared a dream with me that she had had some time ago. I was struck by the beautiful...
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Benjamin Schilaty
Oct 23, 20176 min read
Choosing to Be Straight
I was raised to be straight. My family, my church, and society all expected me to be straight and pointed me in that direction. Being...
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Benjamin Schilaty
Oct 11, 20174 min read
Literally Standing as an Ally
That evening the wife texted me a bit to ask some more questions. After talking about gay stuff for a while she texted: “Also, random...
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Benjamin Schilaty
Oct 9, 20173 min read
The Best Book that Wasn’t Written for Me
Over the past year and half I’ve gotten to know Tom Christofferson pretty well. What a pleasure it has been! He is kind, wise, spiritual,...
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Benjamin Schilaty
Sep 5, 20175 min read
One Size Doesn't Fit All
Since I came out on my blog more than two years ago I’ve been sent Josh Weed’s blog post dozens of times. In the post he and his wife...
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Benjamin Schilaty
Aug 29, 20175 min read
I Will Not Go Back in the Closet
I moved back to Provo last week and so much has changed in the six years since I last lived here. I’m 33 now, I look more like a...
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Benjamin Schilaty
Jul 6, 20174 min read
A Letter to Gay Mormons
This is my second guest post. It was written by a friend of mine who wanted to share his thoughts while also remaining anonymous. He and...
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Benjamin Schilaty
Jun 20, 20177 min read
The Conversation I Wish We Were Having
I spent the last week in Cincinnati grading Spanish AP tests. My week was spent hanging out with friends, exploring the city, endlessly...
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Benjamin Schilaty
Mar 30, 20174 min read
Coming Out to Church Leaders
When I first came out to Mitch and Craig in August of 2007 they recommended that I talk to my bishop about my feelings of same-sex...
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Benjamin Schilaty
Mar 2, 20176 min read
The Time I Kissed a Girl
When I talk to straight Mormons about my experiences as a gay Mormon they often try to find experiences in their lives that parallel...
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Benjamin Schilaty
Jan 7, 20173 min read
Remembering Tami
This is a post that I mostly wrote for myself. I just had to say something about my buddy. My friend Tami Boyens passed away yesterday. I...
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Benjamin Schilaty
Dec 6, 20169 min read
Perfectly Single
Four years ago my life was less than ideal. Actually, it kind of stunk. I was just rereading my journal from 2012 and 2013 and boy did I...
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Benjamin Schilaty
Nov 21, 201610 min read
Creating a Space for Gay Mormons in Tucson
In September 2015 I started the Tucson LDS Same-Gender Attraction group. No one uses the group’s official name and we all just call it...
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Benjamin Schilaty
Nov 9, 20162 min read
Unconventional Evangelizing
Last month three friends and I stayed at an Airbnb in Anaheim while spending two days at Disneyland. Our hostess Leena was super nice....
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Benjamin Schilaty
Oct 27, 20165 min read
Line upon Line
The new mormonandgay.lds.org website went live two days ago and I spent a lot of time reading every single word and watching each video....
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Benjamin Schilaty
Aug 31, 201612 min read
"The Eyes of My Understanding Were Opened": A Bishop's Journey
Carl found my blog back in May and we exchanged a few emails. He told me that if I was ever in Utah he and his wife would love to have me...
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Benjamin Schilaty
Aug 8, 20165 min read
Telling My Gay Mormon Story
When church was over a young woman came over to me and thanked me for my testimony. She told me that she has a friend who’s a lesbian who...
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